I find myself in complete agreement with something MsPhD posted at Young Female Scientist:
1. NIH should allow ANYONE AND EVERYONE with a PhD to apply for ALL GRANTS.
Yeah. Open marketplace to compete with your scientific ideas, no gatekeepers like search committees and deans, eh? and in some senses isn't the K99/R00 most of the way there?
Am I really agreeing with MsPhD?
okay, okay, phew. I have some disagreements with the rest of the post, all is well.
but then I happened across an earlier bit:
My thesis lab went broke when I was about halfway through grad school. I didn't know how much more I needed to do, or what it would cost, much less how much longer it would take.
Anyway so back in grad school when this happened, the dean gave me some good advice. He told me to put my nose to the grindstone. So I did. That was good for a variety of reasons I won't go into here. It was also bad in some ways I regret more now than I did then. But mostly it was good, and I'm not sure my thesis would have turned out the way it did if I hadn't. I think of my thesis as a solid piece of work, and it's at least partly due to that grindstone-on-nose effect.
I think the key thing was that I was so determined to graduate and show those fuckers in my department that I could do it on the cheap, that I ended up convincing not just them but also myself.
wait...did I say "bit"? I meant epic. As in Beowulf. Go read the whole thing.
It makes sense to me.
Clearly I am losing it.